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[13 Nov 2007|01:40pm] |
my boyfriend is REALLY smart but sometimes i doubt him considering his best friend is so immature yet my boyfriend likes to think very highly of him. it's made me want to see this side of his best friend so i've spent lots of alone time with him and have come to the conclusion that...
yeah, this guy is really immature and not the sharpest tool in the shed if you catch my drift.
well anyway, on my quest to understanding why the two important people in my life (roommate and boyfriend) are so infatuated with this guy, the only things i can see about this guy are bad things. i'm so confused and he lives here and everything he does makes me cringe and i have to hide my food because his fat ass eats everything in sight. erg!!!! i can't take this.
so all in all, my only rationale for why these two love this guy is their want to be in touch with a certain side of them... the side that doesn't want to do anything and just be lazy and immature forever. so i understand that want i guess... but the point is I WANT TO LIVE ON MY OWN.
i can't handle roommates, it's fucking hell. i want to wake up and walk downstairs in my underwear without having to worry. i want to wake up and go down to a smoke free living room. and i want to go to sleep without hearing "ooh's" and "aah's" muffled through the walls. i'm meant to be on my own or with someone who i can trust won't bring a foreigner into the house. an irresponsible foreigner at that.
whoooo had to vent. peace guys.
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[02 Nov 2007|03:34pm] |
i want a puppy and i'm kind of mad at everyone because i never get the alone time i want.
that's all i guess.
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[28 Oct 2007|08:59pm] |
hi, it seems as though my latest livejournal entries scattered through the years all speak of a promise to keep up with writing in here. i keep failing to do so which is why i'm not typing about keeping up with this, just giving an update.
i think i always thought of livejournal as a social tool, maybe if i think about it as something for myself i will keep up with it. i may as well, considering livejournal has been overpowered by the oh so popular myspace.com and facebook.com which i happen to be addicted to.
ANYWAY- i live with jamie now in fort myers. a city that is called a city but i refer to it as a town with nothing to do. but that's just me being a pessimist. i need to stop doing that because each time i talk to new people, i find that this "city" isn't so bad.
if it weren't for this place, i wouldn't have met the most amazing boy in the world so there ya go, everything happens for a reason. back to the topic... i truly believe i will find culture in this town. in fact, i kind of have... i learned about a spiritual store that i cannot wait to go to. not that i'm into that stuff, but it's always interested me and anything interesting i can get my hands on at this point is good enough for me.
jamie and i were doing fine then we had a non-discussed falling out and i feel as though we're back to normal. it's weird but i think we both have the same complaints in life right now and even if the complaints kind of regard each other, it's a common bond i'm willing to accept.
i don't know what else to talk about except that i should be starting school again this spring and i'm really excited. learning is one of my favorite past times... i always said "what will i do when i'm done with school and the boring work force is all i face?" and after taking this semester off, i can honestly say it's what i expected... BORING. school keeps me occupied and without it, i get myself into trouble. not that i'm in trouble of any sort, more so just in trouble with myself if you catch my drift.
well there's a short update... all i think about is the boy i'm with but i promised myself i wouldn't fill my first comeback entry with rantings of mr. perfect.
so, expect the next post to be a mushfest and deal with this update for now.
i miss livejournal and my old life that consisted of livejournal.com and complaining about high school.
byee
-jackie
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[26 Apr 2007|06:15pm] |
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So I studied some and went to class looking like poo with my scantron and pencil. And apparently, i had the date wrong? And it was a regular class... I'm retarded. So today I have to matte 10 photographs and that's lame because I'd rather watch the new scrubs and write on livejournal.com. I also have a final tomorrow that I got down so I'm all good.
How's my livejournal friends finals week going?
That prob wasn't proper English at all but how do you phrase that? haaa.
p.s. i like my job lots.
=jax(from mortal combat)
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| HI LJ I'M BACK! |
[20 Apr 2007|02:30am] |
Hi Livejournal.com
I know I haven't typed in here in a while, I've been so obsessed with damn myspace, erg. I still don't have a facebook, that's just too much. ha.
So I went with Jamie tonight to get her tattoo, made me want one so bad. I'm thinking about getting "2+2=5", not just beacuse of Radiohead but because of 1984 and Notes from the Underground too. It's all about being conditioned and that's a big thing to me, I don't know, I think it's a tattoo that I won't regret and it's not just based on radiohead as is my tattoo ideas based on the pixies.
CAN YOU BELiEVE how close I was to getting a tattoo of a little cactus tonight? good thing i didn't, I can't represent the pixies that hardcore. ACtually, I totally would like a cactus tattoo, but then you'de all think I was really nuts hahha.
So, I do miss you little Livejournal and I plan on updating you often. I love my job but school ispissing me off, and I got a new car and the car payments are truly crazy!!
Money makes the world go round and that bugs me. I need to get out of America.
Australia sounds nice...
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| fau sightings |
[19 Nov 2006|10:49pm] |
what the?
I thought FAU was weird but this semester is insane.
christine and i saw a fucking wild fox (maybe wolf) type thing run right pass us
and last week we saw a fucking robot. a functioning robot made out of crap and plywood.
seriously, that place is scary...
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[29 Oct 2006|08:11pm] |
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Okay so in this class 'design', each project is non-objective. If you're unfamiliar with that term, well it basically means no image can be recognized and you're just using pure form to represent whatever you need to. pure form meaning shapes, lines ect. so we had to do one piece being 'music' and the other being 'sound'.
sooo i like advice, heres what i have.
( Ignore the shitty edges )
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| i put this on myspace on accident, its for you guys though. |
[23 Oct 2006|08:41pm] |
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Each subculture pretty much consists of clones. Myself and my own group of friends fall into this too so I'm not being an elitist. I'm just tired of everyone thinking the same and each one of those individuals feel like they think on a higher level than the rest when really we're all the same no matter how much information we can memorize or even analyze, we can all grasp it so none of us are better than anyone really.
It seems everyone I meet just has the same things to say that I've already heard and what I say to them, they've already heard, so what's left anymore? People stick to these beliefs. Nobody should stick to any solid thing, I believe everyone should live the only life they have as we know it as flexible as possible. Do new things, change your outlook. For instance, many people who have my interests like to go on about how TV is brainwashing and how we need to keep expanding ourselves and blah blah blah. But seriously, they aren't expanding themselves in anyway by regurgitating the same views all the time. Some would call me a hypocrite, but that is how I live my life, if living flexible is being a hypocrite then labeling me that is fine. But seriously, look at my myspace- why is it that way? Why do I have a list of bands I like and directors I like? Why do I put new profile songs up all the time? Is it my want to exude some certain image? Why am I even posting this? Is it my want to be portrayed as someone with that higher level of thought? Everyone acts like they have this purpose that is greater than everyone else's but we all have a purpose and they are all equally as important as the next persons'.
Sorry for this gigantor post but I've been observing myself and reading through old livejournal entries and realizing I've always thought I was the shit and now I know I'm not better than anyone else so hey, I guess it's my own personal revelation.
Anyway, this post is basically a huge contradiction because pretty much what I said has already been said and apparently I'm not being that flexible if I'm stuck on this solid idea that everyone should live their lives as flexibly (is that a word?) as possible. paradoxes are the shit and we should all live our lives with inconsistency otherwise we'll never know true change.
that's all.
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[18 Oct 2006|03:02pm] |
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random thoughts from the brilliant mind of Jackie Rosario:
- i saw a crossing guard today, staring at his watch, why would he stare? aren't their shifts like 30 minutes?
- i should be writing my essay, not in LJ.
- i wish there were signs in every convenient store that exists with my picture on it that says "do not sell this girl cigarettes"
- "how come every time you come around my london london bridge wanna go down?" whats that even mean?
- the brake lights on a mitsubishi eclipse spyder are really cool- they are like globes, i only know because I was stuck behind one forever.
- i dont want to be in fl for my 20th birhtday because i dont want anyone to acknowledge me turning 20. i'm going to stay 19 for 2 years because the age 20 scares the shit out of me.
- i dont know if its 98.7 or 105.9 with 'get the led out' but i think they should do that with the rolling stones, do you know how many songs they have?!?!!
- i REALLY dont want to get drunk on Halloween.
- people say i remind them of natalie portmans character in garden state, and i couldn't disagree more (besides the humping dog thing).
- i bet most of you think i'm an extrovert, but im totally an introvert and i like it that way. observing is more fun than participating.
- i think animals love me so much because they can sense good natured people =]
- i saw a cool composition today but i'm like 'fuck it', i'm into too many other art forms right now to care about photography which is my concentration, thats a shitty mentality i know.
- i wish i was on coke then i'd be motivated to do this essay.
- i wish i could hang out tonight!!!! why does school take so much time?
- i'm going to set a date and then go a week without internet. i almost wish it never existed, it takes over peoples lives (like my own).
- i wish i was madonna.
that's all.
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| dane cook makes me laugh. |
[18 Oct 2006|12:15am] |
I've really only been putting effort in one class this semester- Interpretation of Fiction so I'm sitting here thinking I'm doing bad in all my classes (especially spanish, i NEVER go). But I just looked at my Spanish grade online and the lowest grade I've gotten on a test so far is a 91!
I swear, I rule haha.
And today we get our first paper back from Interpretation of Fiction and I got a B. I got really pissed because I truly expected an A. It was such a good paper haa, but apparently I didn't give enough support =[
That's usually my problem, I hate quotes.
Here's what she said:
"You have 3 potention papers here. You start to make an argument but don't. Instead you draw abrupt conclusions that don't provide proper textual analysis. Some excellent papers could come from this work."
Ahhh I was so bummed when I saw that guys... "I did my best"
ahh marijuana yum yum
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| I am the walrus |
[07 Oct 2006|10:23pm] |
I just got done watching V for Vendetta.
awesome movie, ending as beautiful as Fight Club.
I likeeee.
shit i want to go to christines but i have to wait on this chinese food first.
I hope it comes soon because I need to get out of here.
we're going to watch Thank You for Smoking.
coo coo ca choo
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[02 Oct 2006|02:55pm] |
okay this is a work in progress so don't freak out if i relapse BUT... i think i've quit cigarettes. it is now monday and i havent had one. sunday i smoked one and saturday i smoked two. i think i'm finally through. ive been contemplating this for a while now and this soar throat seems to be a sign.
i dont know, im not missing anything special except money that gets wasted on those things so hopefully i can stick to this. some encouragement from outsiders would be nice too =]
byeee
p.s. do you think i can pursue comedy?
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[25 Sep 2006|06:16pm] |
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alcohol should be illegal.
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[11 Sep 2006|11:58pm] |
ah how come even a slight feeling of numbness to me is comforting?
i need to go in a new direction soon.
i should only be dependent on oxygen and all that neccessary stuff. not ciggies and beer and marijuana and anything else i encounter.
the funny thing is, i only ponder these things when i am drunk and high. Almost like i feel guilty for feeling numb and nice.
egh i don't know what i should do.
i'm only 19. theres too much ahead to stop now.
i guess i just wish i started later than i did.
for as long as i can remember i've had addictions.
( i want to write a story about a planet )
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[10 Sep 2006|08:45pm] |
am i psychic? or do you guys predict things to?
i guess when something in real life remotely resembles something that ive dreamt about, i get sort of scared and think i have powers but we all know i'm just a weirdo.
so i'm getting into all sorts of new things because i want to be the most well rounded person ever.
i guess that's all i have to say really but then again, i should mention my new apparatus that glows!!
it makes constellations and i'm excited to use it in the dark.
okay, onto 2nd shower today. (it's nasty outside). byeee
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| you're just a Loverful. |
[25 Aug 2006|08:08pm] |
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So, I have a real journal on Microsoft Word and it's at about 40 pages now. And it's basically four years of complaining. I've been so afraid to delete it because I don't want to forget anything which is ironic because I can't look back at some of the entries because it gives me a flashback of how I was feeling when whatever happened. And for the most part, I speak of the bad so it hutrs.
It's so weird how words can trigger emotions like that.
music has the same effect. powerful things are awesome.
i once wrote a haiku called WORLD DOMINATION hahaha
it goes like this..
with power and mind
i will take over the world
world domination
so, what do you think of when i say the word "chaos"?
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things i'm through with:
- rain
- traffic
- fau "cops" who give me 15 dollar tickets for parking in dirt. ha
- jim morrison (officially the most over-rated dead rockstar)
- dependencies
things that are still or newly cool:
- cutting off antique cars
- EVOLUTION (um, opposable thumbs, duh.)
- pepperoni hot pockets (thanks jillian)
- hand sanitizer being EVERYWHERE
- pooping.
anyways, school is cool except that i'm constantly TIRED! ahh.
i've never felt so refreshed in my entire life though. i'm truly happy at this point.
and all i hear ever is happy music in my head. no longer sad songs. i'm happy. yeah! haha also high.
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| how we change |
[19 Aug 2006|04:20pm] |
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I loved the way I used to be. I held strong onto beliefs, now I'm careless and lame. All I want is to get in touch with the old me. Although I am the same, I feel stupid all of the time.
I feel like I dumbed down for Adam and now I can't get back to having theories and beliefs and an imagination. I'm glad we broke up because I love who I actually am. This is the last thing I would EVER want to admit to but I'll say it... All of my friends were right. I should have listened to you. Now that I've pleased a lot of you and gave you the ability to say "told you so", I'll go on with my thoughts.
Anyway, Jamie says I'm insecure about my intelligence and that's why I date dumb guys. I feel a need for someone to reassure me that I'm not retarded and someone who will make me feel smart.
I love how smart my friends are, I love the talks we have but my old self still feels held back. I just feel like I have nothing to say about anything and that kills me because I was once the most opinionated, awesome girl ever.
So yeah, schools starting soon which really sucks considering I've been in the longest summer ever, or so it seems that way. And I don't have a job. I wanted to get one before school started but it's too late. I'm hungry so I'll be off for now.
But I'll be back. Livejournal is the shit.
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| MAURY |
[15 Jun 2006|12:30pm] |
this show is killing me
i dont even have my period and im bawling like a little baby.
remind me to not have a baby if im unsure who the fahter is.
dgoinsfg
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[23 Aug 2005|06:07pm] |
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Want to know about life? wellll i go to school for like 4 hours 3 times a week so that's nice. annndd i get a lot of money at my new job and i have another job too where i get even more money but its only one day a week. yeah man, i'm getting paid to take pictures, crazy. im bored and lame because i'm reading my social problems book and i only started school on monday. tv is the other thing in my life besides my midget boyfriend(<3) so six feet under omg omg, and laguna beach is annoying me- jasons hot but fuck that asshole. and that's all i know about life. bye
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